Wednesday, May 6, 2009

somthing is missing

How did I lose
How did I offend
Why do I still miss
What did I do wrong to
Why am I so affected by
Why am I still torn up over
Why do I still cringe when I see
Why do I constantly dream about
When will I ever stop thinking about

I don't believe
I no longer trust
I just can't understand
Is it me ? Or is it

I don't want to see
I don't want to hear
I just want my mind to be rid of
Because I tried to be nice to
and work it out with
and in return, I only see
at
worst. I take back my heart. I take back my promises. I don't love

anymor. (And
you thought I was talking to you.) Stay away from
.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

"Because I tried to be nice to
and work it out with
and in return, I only see
at
worst."
A question to think about is whether you tried to be nice for the right reasons. If you only tried to be nice to her because you wanted to win her back, then your efforts only hurt you because you pushed her away. If you tried to work it out without listening to her side of things, then you were only trying to get things to end up the way you *thought* they should. Take an objective look at your intentions.

As cliche as it sounds, hings get worse before they get better. All these intense feelings you have--confusion, anger, frustration--mean you're closer to getting over her.

And now it seems, in comparison to some other posts, that you actually *want* to do just that, but you can't. Your subconscious just keeps bringing her up in your mind and it's really annoying your conscious self. One interesting thing you could try: pick a specific time for all those thoughts to surface, like an appointment. For instance, Thursdays from 2 - 2:30 or something. That's the only time you'll let yourself think about her. Any other time, you force yourself to do something else. Play DDR. Find a game online. Talk to someone. Practice a song. Anything. Over time, that'll help you get control over your thoughts. You'll slowly stop being so affected by her because you'll have trained your mind not to think about her unless you actively want to. Soon enough you'll realize you don't *need* your Thursday (or whatever) appointment anymore. It'll take a bit of effort, but if you were to find something like that to stick to you might just get to the point where you really do stop thinking about and being torn up over her.

Don't let one person or experience ruin you. It's not right to lose yourself because of one thing and not very fair to blame that loss on an external force. Stay strong.

philophiliac said...

Thank you.
I will take your words to heart.
Thank you.

Are you speaking from experience ?

Unknown said...

You're very welcome. Glad I could help you a little.

A bit was from personal experience, and another bit was information and tips I've gathered from various readings.

**things, not "hings," sorry.

philophiliac said...

i knew it was you.